Turning Corners

Do you ever find it hard to describe what is in your heart? Struggle to find the right words? Feel like if you do you may sound like a crazy person? For a very long time now I have felt like I am on the verge of something great. I don't know in what capacity though. I don't know if it is spiritually, healthy, relationshipy (not sure if that is a word lol), financially, or just just another lesson I need to learn......maybe an experience that I need to, well, experience. Something bigger than me is working its way trying to get out and open up to something bigger and better. I don't really know what that all means. I don't know how to properly explain it or put my finger on it exactly. Wheels are turning and I am going with it. I am open and hopefully ready. Sometimes I feel like it is right around the corner and I can't run fast enough to find it. I feel a bit frantic like I might miss it.

Tonight as I sit in a very quiet house I am very reflective of the course my life has taken over the past several years. I feel like I lived a life in which I knew all the answers.........to now, living a life in which I realize I do not have all the answers. There are days I am not totally sure which way is better. But what I do know is that I am enjoying the journey into finally taking the time to discover who I really am. To find out what I believe, just for me. To find out what makes me tick. What makes me giddy with excitement. What makes be burst with joy and love.

So as I continue on this journey, I feel part of it is to be a bit more transparent. I spent so many years so worried about what others think of me. Years trying to do what I thought everyone else wanted me to do. Well, I am done living like that.  I think maybe with me being a little bit more transparent I will not feel the burden of trying to live perfectly. Maybe living a bit more transparent I will find what I need to find. So here's to turning as many corners as I need to............